Sleeping fun times

Well yesterday I got up later than I planned, because I stayed up super late.

See, I have a mild form of DSPS, or delayed sleep phase syndrome. Look it up - basically I have societal jet lag. Because my brain doesn't interpret sunlight quite right, my ideal sleep schedule is about 5am-2pm. It's not that I have insomnia (I have absolutely no trouble sleeping once I get there), it's just that I don't really like sleeping until really, really late.

Thankfully, my version is mild enough that if I keep to a really strict sleep schedule I'm okay. Trouble is, it takes me about 3 weeks of death and horrible sleepiness to get me on that schedule. (And let's not talk about daylight savings... I'm pretty sure it was invented just to fuck with my life.)

I'm really lucky that I have the mild version, and to be honest it by and large doesn't bug me very much. Maybe it's because I've always been like this - my mom remembers me putting me down for the night when I was a toddler and coming back hours later to find me quietly laying down in bed, wide awake.

It's meant some good things, too. When I was young, my mom would put us all down to bed, and then an hour later I would get out to bed and watch the news with my parents. It brought me closer to them, and because of it I learnt a lot more about what was happening in the world.

Because of it, I also spent a lot of time by myself. When I was younger, I shared my room with my sister, so I didn't want to wake her up... so I spent an hour or two every night, just with my thoughts. I think it made me really thoughtful, and an introverted person.

It's had a huge impact on me.

Another strange thing? I now LOVE the night. 3am is my favourite time of day. So sometimes, even when I know that I'll hate myself in the morning, I'll stay up really, really late. It's like my safety blanket - I'm all by myself, just me and the night.

Trouble is, being a high school teacher doesn't quite jive with that. Ugh.

Maybe I just need to marry rich and stay at home with kids? (jk hun... you do what you want, lol)